A Second Journey means a Second Chance

I'm not going to beat myself up about the way I traveled the first journey. Sure, my road snacks weren't exactly the healthiest, and I could have stopped more frequently for some physical exercise. I could have cut the caffeine altogether rather than just cutting down. But when you look at it, I did a damn good job. I didn't smoke. I didn't drink. I took my vitamins (almost) every day. I did walk when I could, and I only had one caffeinated soda a day (which is pretty great when compared to my natural coca cola IV).

But when faced with the prospect of planning a second journey, I just want to do better. Now that I'm not so worried about the will I be able to conceive, I can focus a little more on the minutia that will help to improve my overall pregnancy health. I'd like to get back to my weight in May of 2011 and lower my chances of gestational diabetes. I just want to be a better me.

Back when I did my health blog in 2010-2011, Sunday used to be my day for reassessing the past week and setting goals for the coming seven days. Now that I've had almost a week to mourn and wallow in my (totally understandable) self-indulgence, I think I'm ready to start planning the itinerary. My follow up doctor's appointment isn't until a week from Tuesday, but I guess there's part of me that hopes that it will go really well and my doctor will push up my departure date for journey number two. Either way, I want to start packing my bags and preparing to head out into the world again.

So here are my goals for the coming week. This time I want to be more fastidious about my health, and eventually this will include more organic and whole food eating, but for now I need to start that process.

Goals for the coming week...
-Don't smoke. For pete's sake, why have I allowed this nasty habit to sneak back in during this vulnerable time?
-Walk at least 7 miles for the week (that gym membership is just draining my bank account for no reason)
-Count my calories and stay under 2,000 per day.
-Take my prenatal vitamins every day. Last time I got a little lazy about taking them during the "trying" period. My doctor says that taking them before you conceive decreases your chance for birth defects. Here's to being more fastidious about this the second time around.

Still emotionally numb, but hopefully forcing myself to look forward will soothe the pain of looking back.